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After losing 137 I have gained back 60lbs! Logged back on this morning to see one of the ladies I often read had a similar story. We both had given in and were both losing the battle. It is on the one hand comforting to know that others are traveling your road but on the other hand you wonder if anyone really ever overcomes obesity. Such a disgusting battle to watch others eat anything and not gain! They claim to work it off but we who are prone to obesity find exercise is never going to allow us to eat as we desire. Weather you look at it as an addiction to certain foods or an allergy to certain foods it is a fact those foods will always be a problem and must be dealt with every day for the rest of your life.

My diet will be a continues battle everyday for the rest of my life and the majority of people will not understand that. It is very much like a food allergy to flour and sugar, others will not make exceptions for me I have to do that myself. It makes going out to friends houses and even preparing meals for my family difficult but that is the task at hand! In addition doctors will tell me as a diabetic I need whole grains but I know I can not control myself if I eat flour, whole grain or otherwise. Flour in any form and sugar under any hidden name are ingredients I must search out and keep out. Food producers make that soo hard with there false ads and hidden names. They are in it for the bucks and not concerned about health and that is also a fact that just has to be dealt with.

I have found a wonderful website that has many low carb recipes on it if you are a food addict, low carb dieter or diabetic this is a wonderful site for you. Here is the link http://www.genaw.com/lowcarb/ God bless this woman for putting this site together!

Facts to accept:

I will never eat sugar or flour with out over indulging!
I will every day for the rest of my life have to eat lowcarb
I will have to exercise everyday! (I hate, hate, hate exercise! Just look at it as do it and get it over with!I do 42 mins of wii fit currently)
Losing weight is going to be a slow process! I am 40 so not going anywhere fast and maybe never be where I would hope but I still will not be going up if I stick with it and that is a win in and of its self.
What we do cast a shadow. I am either going to be a positive or negative influence on others, I do choose each day by my action which I will be!
So lets do this!! Me against the carbs, flour and sugar who wins today?

I am so touched by the love I have felt on the slim buddy site after posting about my mom’s acute leukemia. Thank you all so much for the out pouring of love and support. It has really made a difference in my life. I hadn’t checked in on here for two days and then I come back and find such love! I had been doing really bad eating for the past two day then after logging in here this morning I decide to take control and do better. I went with Mom to the hospital and we found out the cancer she has could take her life in a matter of months with out treatment. The treatments can prolong her life and there is a small percentage chance of a cure. Not hopeless but grave news. I have been eating based on emotions and feeling life is so short it doesn’t matter, but reading all the encouragement here helped me make better choices today. I couldn’t eat my gastric bypass diet because I had to take whatever was available but I think I did well.

Breakfast Hot oatmeal (a weight watchers cinnamon swirl)

Lunch Chicken Breast & side salad

PM Snack Apple

Supper 2 chicken Brst, asparagus, broccoli, and tomato.I made good choices today and feel good about them thanks to you guys. I truly love my slimbuddies. If any of you facebook please look me up (Tammy Alley Kapoor) I check that quite often and would love if we could keep each other constantly encouraged

Just to let everyone know my mom’s cancer is acute luekemia. My eating suck today and I don’t really care! We will be traveling three hours away to get treatment this week I am not sure if I will blog or not or even how I will eat at this point. Just pray for us.

If you haven’t been reading along with my plan you may want to read my blog entitled “Why don’t you just eat like you had the surgery?”  for clarification as to what I am experimenting with. The purpose is simple to see if I can just eat like I had surgery and lose the weight without the surgery. Today’s weight: 249.4   Total loss for 21 days 13.6 lbs.

I  loss .8 pounds eating my new menu.

Breakfast: 3/4 cup South Beach Toasted Wheat, 1/4 cup 2% milk. 1 serving of GNC Pro performance 100% Whey Protein. 

Snack AM  1/4 cup sunflower seeds & 1 single serve raisin box mixed

 Lunch: Tuna 3/4 cup ,3/4 cup romaine. 

Snack PM: 1 cup South Beach Toasted Wheat dry (eat it like popcorn)

Dinner 2 chicken brst 1/2 cup of Collard greens. My one beloved Fullcircle Cookie.

The reasons for the changes are I am focusing on raising my metabolism. I read on several sights WebMd, How to.com, etc that one way is to eat more often. My body is signaling me that this is true because I feel hungry more often while eating this menu yesterday and today than I do eating the 1000 calorie menu. I also switched to a multivitamin that includes iodine for thyroid health. Another thing I have done is rid my diet of caffeine. I found that easier than I thought as I review my blogs I think the headaches only lasted a day or two now I find it is no problem to keep caffeine free.

In an article I read on How to.com  and another from ehow.com the gentlemen writing the articles claimed that certain foods raise motabilism. The foods were peanut butter, spinach, olive oil, greatfruit, apples, pears, low fat dariy, broccoli, water and green tea . Water is something I am already getting plenty of however I don’t drink a full glass of water upon waking as sugessted so I can make that improvement.  I think I should add green tea too! I can work in some of the other foods as well so we will see about that.

I am wondering if after a few days of this menu if my body will stop losing and I will need to switch back and forth between the 1000 calorie diet and this menu to keep the scale moving down. There are so many peices to this puzzle.

Opps This blog was typed on 1/3/2009 but I saved with out publishing! It was a really hetic day at work was in a hurry so I will publish it today! 

If you haven’t been reading along with my plan you may want to read my blog entitled “Why don’t you just eat like you had the surgery?”  for clarification as to what I am experimenting with. The purpose is simple to see if I can just eat like I had surgery and lose the weight without the surgery. Today’s weight: 250.2   Total loss for 20 days 12.8 lbs.

I only loss .2 but eat just as I should

Breakfast: 3/4 cup South Beach Toasted Wheat, 1/4 cup 2% milk. 1 serving of GNC Pro performance 100% Whey Protein.  Lunch: Tuna 3/4 cup ,3/4 cup romaine. Dinner 2 chicken brst 1/2 cup of Collard greens. My one beloved Fullcircle Cookie.

I am begining to believe there is something to eating more to lose???? I am doing all I can being serious about diet and exercise so what now back to the research board to evaluate the first 20 days. Do a little reading, thinking and praying and see where to go. Not quiting this line of dieting just still working out the bugs of it.

If you haven’t been reading along with my plan you may want to read my blog entitled “Why don’t you just eat like you had the surgery?”  for clarification as to what I am experimenting with. The purpose is simple to see if I can just eat like I had surgery and lose the weight without the surgery. Today’s weight: 250.4   Total loss for 19 days 12.6 lbs. Is this totally crazy or what yesterday I didn’t eat like I should where I usually have 1000 calories I had 2300 and I didn’t do the amount of exercise I normally do yet I somehow lost a pound in the last 24hours. I am not complaining but think the whole think is crazy. For the three days prior to yesterday I had eaten only 1000 calories and spent at least 45mins working out each day. My weight held steady the first and second day then went up one pound on the third day. So for the past four days I have a total lost of zero!! I have still not started my period even though I was cramping and craving chocolate yesterday the most I have in years. I went for like seven years not having a period so I am very aware of it now that it has returned. When I begin to lose weight and take iron supplements it returned and can’t say I was thrilled but took it as a sign of improved health. I even became pregnant last year but sadly lost the baby. Now after that lost it had returned monthly but I am wondering if my new diet may be effecting it. I usually feel symptoms and start with in a day or two but after feeling this way all week and now the symptoms have all disappeared today I am wonder if I will just skip this month. If I do skip that is a bad sign for this diet because I went through a cancer scare myself a few years back. The lining in my uterus had become thick from not having a period and my doctor did a biopsy that came back negative PTL! The doctor said that this cancer shows up in obese women because of their cycle being disturbed by the weight. I know that is true for me when my weight reached a certain point I just stopped having my period. After the scare of cancer my doctor told me it was important to keep my cycle regular so I will not be happy to see the diet disturb my cycle. This does make me wonder about women using birth control that disturbs the cycle do they stand a risk of cancer of the uterus? Do they know it if they do stand that risk? I feel confident I will stick to my menu plan for today.Breakfast: 3/4 cup South Beach Toasted Wheat, 1/4 cup 2% milk. 1 serving of GNC Pro performance 100% Whey Protein.  Lunch: Tuna 3/4 cup ,3/4 cup romaine. Dinner 2 chicken brst 1/2 cup of Collard greens. My one beloved Fullcircle Cookie.

I am planning to work out too, so we will see if I gain or lose there seems to be no rhyme or reason to it at all.

If you haven’t been reading along with my plan you may want to read my blog entitled “Why don’t you just eat like you had the surgery?”  for clarification as to what I am experimenting with. The purpose is simple to see if I can just eat like I had surgery and lose the weight without the surgery.

Today’s weight: 251.4   Total loss for 18 days 11.6 lbs OK that is a loss of .2 lbs in  the last day.

I totally blew it today! My grocery store was closed today so I am off and that meant the hands and mind bored turned to food. Adding on the stress of waitng for my mom’s cancer results and with my period due I craved all sorts of very bad foods. Excuse or not here is what I had to eat.

Breakfast: 3/4 cup South Beach Toasted Wheat, 1/4 cup 2% milk. 1 serving of GNC Pro performance 100% Whey Protein.

Lunch: Tuna 3/4 cup ,3/4 cup romaine.

And here is where things went wrong through the rest of the day I ate

• A bag of Microwave popcorn
• A total of six of my Organic cookies
• 1 cup ice cream Carbsmart

 Dinner: 4oz of ham, 1 cup mashed potatoes, and 1 cup GreenBean

That is about 2300 calories, I usually eat about 1000 on the “eating like I had gastric bypass diet”

I am disappointed in myself but I will start over tomorrow on my diet!

If you haven’t been reading along with my plan you may want to read my blog entitled “Why don’t you just eat like you had the surgery?”  for clarification as to what I am experimenting with. The purpose is simple to see if I can just eat like I had surgery and lose the weight without the surgery.

Today’s weight: 251.6   Total loss for 17 days 11.4 lbs OK that is a gain of 1.6 lbs in one day?!?! It is coming up on a visit from Aunt Flow and I am feeling a bit bloated so maybe that is it. It is Hard to grasp how I could eat this 1000 calorie day plan, drink 6 20oz blts of water (I drink this much everyday) and exercise for 45 mins and then see this morning a 1.2 weight gain on the scale. Here is what I have eaten today.Breakfast: 3/4 cup South Beach Toasted Wheat, 1/4 cup 2% milk. 1 serving of GNC Pro performance 100% Whey Protein.  Lunch: Tuna 3/4 cup ,3/4 cup romaine. Dinner 2 chicken brst 1/2 cup of Collard greens. My one beloved Fullcircle Cookie. Very frustrating after a great start I drew to a stand still two days ago and now I have gained. Even though I have gained today the diet does have some benefits. It feels so safe to me because I don’t have to make food decisions.  Stress eating is eliminated by knowing exactly what I will eat. With Mom’s cancer I really have been battling emotional eating and maybe some of this increased desire to eat has to do with Aunt flow coming to visit. I am sticking with it and not changing anything for now but I am losing confidence in it. You know through my whole 135lb journey there has been a reoccurring theme: lose 1olbs get stuck try something else lose ten more get stuck again. This is crazy!!

If you haven’t been reading along with my plan you may want to read my blog entitled “Why don’t you just eat like you had the surgery?”  for clarification as to what I am experimenting with. The purpose is simple to see if I can just eat like I had surgery and lose the weight without the surgery. Today’s weight : 250.4   Total loss for 16 days 12.6 lbs!!!! After reading comments on my blog I decide I needed to research just what the after Gastric bypass surgey diet is. I was kind of surprised that they eat so much. Many have suggested that they eat six small meals a day but actually that is just one stage the final stage seems to be 3 meals a day with 1 to 1 1/2 cups of food at each meal. With a grand total of 1200 to 1400 calories per day. So I should be eating a little more than I have been.  I also have nutritional needs that are not being met so I want address those as well. My need is to raise protein and fiber but keep fat and carbs low. No tall order right? LOLHere is what I am going to do~Breakfast: I will replace my  apple with 3/4 cup South Beach Toasted Wheat, 1/4 cup 2% milk. I will add 1 serving of GNC Pro performance 100% Whey Protein. I also am adding GNC Liquid Multi Colloidal Minerals it has over 60 minerals from natural sources. This ups protein and fiber! Lunch: I will have my tuna salad and add romaine salad.  My Tuna is 3/4 cup so I will add 3/4 cup romaine. That is a small amount but I want to stick to the 1 1/2 cup per meal and can’t afford to lose the protein by reducing the tuna. Even if it does not add a lot of fiber I still think the roughage will be beneficial.Supper: I will have 2 chicken brst to double the protein. I will also have 1/2 cup of some type of greens. I will also be taking a prenatal vitamin each night. I chose prenatal because they have such high amounts of the nutrients our bodies need. My doctor once told me the body will flush all extra vitamins so I am not worried about over doing it on vitamins. I will also continue taking Intestinal Cleanse No 1 by Health Freedom Resources it helps me with my chronic constipation I have had all my life.  So we will see how  these changes go.One more thing biggest battle today was the emotional eating battle. I went to the cancer center with my mom who was referred by her doctor because her white blood cells were low. We thought it would be an initial meeting to set up test but after looking at her blood under a microscope he did a bone biopsy today. He looked at that under the microscope and came back and told us that he believed it to be lymphoma of some type. We will know more next week when the results come back from the labs as to what kind of cancer it is but I already know the doctor sees something that concerns him. When I told him I was surprised about getting the biopsy done today, we had thought that we would be scheduled for that later he told me that normally he sees a patient and schedules a biopsy within two weeks then a follow up a week later for results but he felt we needed to “get on this” and figure out what is going on. Mom is a smoker and has been her entire life. So what is the first thing my brain screams? “FOOD!!” I didn’t but I wanted to and still do.

If you haven’t been reading along with my plan you may want to read my blog entitled “Why don’t you just eat like you had the surgery?”  for clarification as to what I am experimenting with. The purpose is simple to see if I can just eat like I had surgery and lose the weight without the surgery. I am not under a doctor’s supervision. I am taking my blood sugars and blood pressure daily. I am also taking multivitamin supplments and I also am being sure I drink lots of water.

The most asked question is what am I eating so I am adding my menu to my daily blog, because I am a food addict it helps me to have a plan and eat the same thing everyday.

Menu: Brk~ Power protein bar (Yuck, didn’t like it) , Lunch~6oz Tuna (tuna, red bean, corn), Dinner~Chk Breast/mayo, Treat 1 organic sugar free cookie.

Today’s weight : 250.4   Total loss for 15 days 12.6 lbs!!!! My weight didn’t change at all from yesterday.

I am exhausted after a long day. I will write a more detailed blog tomorrow but I have been reading comments and doing a little research. I will respond to comments tomorrow I worked from 5Am to 6:00Pm today! Self employment Yay! Maybe being so active will give me good result in the morning!